TGIF...and other life musings
Seems like it took Friday an awfully long time to get here this week. In fact, yesterday felt like it should have been Friday all day! Alas, Thursday finally came to an end, and it is truly the last day of the work week today. It's been a whole week since I posted anything here, and it's not for lack of introspective thought...more a case of laziness in putting thought into words. Funny...i compose amazing soliloquies in my mind, unspoken reflections on life, love & the quest for happiness and fulfillment while driving to & from work. If I just had a digital connection from my brain to here, I could put it all into written word. But who cares, really? It's all just random rumblings in my gray matter. Usually doesn't make much sense anyway! ;)
But today I muse about that subject so many of us single 40-something women ponder...am I okay just being by myself, not connected to a "significant other", not necessarily dating anyone of great import, not overly concerned about it all anyway?? This second time around divorce is interesting, different, provoking in a real self-evaluation type of way. You know, there's a blog this woman has that's part of the offerings on a women's website called iVillage that I check out regularly. Her blog is called "this fish needs a bicycle", patterned after the quote by Irina Dunn, 1970, saying "a woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle". Her little comment about herself is, "This fish needs a bicycle: if not for comfort, then at least for entertainment's sake." First off, I loved the name. Second, i believe the saying holds a lot of truth in it. I don't NEED a man in order to exist. I am perfectly self-sufficient to handle my day-to-day survival needs...food, water, gasoline, hair color, artificial nails! LOL Seriously, tho, I don't know that I need a man to "complete me" (what a phrase!). But while I may not NEED the male type of person for basic survival, I WANT the male type of person in my life to satisfy a myriad of things I could list for you...but you can probably figure out many of them. I think about times when I was really happy and content in my first marriage, and what factors caused that. And it definitely had a lot to do with being "in love", being loved by him, and the companionship factor was pretty huge. Sharing your days, your trials, tribulations and your joys & victories with someone you love, who really loves you back, is amazing. I miss that. A lot. I can chuckle at myself, tho, because while I miss that stuff, I love being able to sleep in a snore-free environment, staying in bed on a weekend as long as I want without anyone making me feel like I should get up or need to "perform" (you know what I mean, girls!) at some ungodly early hour!! Yeah, I like my privacy and singledom in a lot of ways. But it definitely gets lonely at times. Kind of hollow. It's different when you have kids at home too...they fill up that lonely space and you have accountability to someone other than yourself and your dog...lol...but I'm an empty-nester and therefore don't have my beloved children with me either.
So, where does all this leave me?? Hell if I know. Guess I'll just continue pondering, keep on doin' what I'm doin', cherish my friends & family around me, and figure that there's no way I can predict what is down the road for me. And that's okay, for now. But this fish eventually needs a bicycle...for comfort, entertainment, and love's sake.
TTFN...have a great weekend, y'all!
Daffodil
But today I muse about that subject so many of us single 40-something women ponder...am I okay just being by myself, not connected to a "significant other", not necessarily dating anyone of great import, not overly concerned about it all anyway?? This second time around divorce is interesting, different, provoking in a real self-evaluation type of way. You know, there's a blog this woman has that's part of the offerings on a women's website called iVillage that I check out regularly. Her blog is called "this fish needs a bicycle", patterned after the quote by Irina Dunn, 1970, saying "a woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle". Her little comment about herself is, "This fish needs a bicycle: if not for comfort, then at least for entertainment's sake." First off, I loved the name. Second, i believe the saying holds a lot of truth in it. I don't NEED a man in order to exist. I am perfectly self-sufficient to handle my day-to-day survival needs...food, water, gasoline, hair color, artificial nails! LOL Seriously, tho, I don't know that I need a man to "complete me" (what a phrase!). But while I may not NEED the male type of person for basic survival, I WANT the male type of person in my life to satisfy a myriad of things I could list for you...but you can probably figure out many of them. I think about times when I was really happy and content in my first marriage, and what factors caused that. And it definitely had a lot to do with being "in love", being loved by him, and the companionship factor was pretty huge. Sharing your days, your trials, tribulations and your joys & victories with someone you love, who really loves you back, is amazing. I miss that. A lot. I can chuckle at myself, tho, because while I miss that stuff, I love being able to sleep in a snore-free environment, staying in bed on a weekend as long as I want without anyone making me feel like I should get up or need to "perform" (you know what I mean, girls!) at some ungodly early hour!! Yeah, I like my privacy and singledom in a lot of ways. But it definitely gets lonely at times. Kind of hollow. It's different when you have kids at home too...they fill up that lonely space and you have accountability to someone other than yourself and your dog...lol...but I'm an empty-nester and therefore don't have my beloved children with me either.
So, where does all this leave me?? Hell if I know. Guess I'll just continue pondering, keep on doin' what I'm doin', cherish my friends & family around me, and figure that there's no way I can predict what is down the road for me. And that's okay, for now. But this fish eventually needs a bicycle...for comfort, entertainment, and love's sake.
TTFN...have a great weekend, y'all!
Daffodil
posted by daffodil @ 9:08 AM
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